Once

How often do you find the right person?

Falling Slowly - Glen Hansard


I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
And always fool me
And I can't react
And games that never amount
To more than they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now

Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing along

If You Want Me


Are you really here or am I dreaming
I can't tell dreams from truth
for it's been so long since I have seen you
I can hardly remember your face anymore

When I get really lonely
and the distance causes our silence
I think of you smiling
with pride in your eyes a lover that sighs

If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me

Are you really sure that you’d believe me
when others say I lie
I wonder if you could ever despise me
when you know I really try
to be a better one to satisfy you
For your everything to me
and I’ll do what you ask me
if you’ll let me be, free

If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me
If you want me satisfy me, if you want me satisfy me

Lies


I think it's time, we give it up
And figure out what's stopping us
From breathing easy, and talking straight
The way is clear if you're ready now
The volunteer is slowing down
And taking time to save himself

The little cracks they escalated
And before you know it is too late
For making circles and telling lies

You're moving too fast for me
And I can't keep up with you
Maybe if you slowed down for me
I could see you're only telling
Lies, lies, lies
Breaking us down with your
Lies, lies, lies
When will you learn

The little cracks they escalated
And before you know it is too late
For making circles and telling lies

You're moving too fast for me
And I can't keep up with you
Maybe if you'd slowed down for me
I could see you're only telling
Lies, lies, lies
Breaking us down with your
Lies, lies, lies
When will you learn

So plant the thought and watch it grow
Wind it up and let it go

Wedding Photographer

大个子最好的朋友也是我的同事Alan，今年秋天准备结婚。不知道是谁的主意，反正最后决定要大个子来证婚。Alan和大个子从幼儿园起就是穿开裆裤的好朋友。大个子自然义不容辞，申请交费，拿了牧师的执照，可以officially marry people了。

他的一个车友朋友Grayson正好准备上周六结婚，听说大个子可以证婚，也让大个子来给他们结婚。大个子心肠一热，便毛遂自荐地把我叫过去给他们做摄影师。证婚对他和婚礼摄影对于我来讲都是第一次，想想就当练兵吧。


婚礼前的新郎Grayson在剪头，有些兴奋，有些紧张，似乎还有些迷茫。

这次的婚礼很特别，是一场surprising wedding，不是新郎surprise新娘，而是新人们surprise他们的父母。婚礼订在新郎祖父建的小木屋，屋子很远，在Calistoga还要往北的一个小镇Middle Town的山林里。我们从湾区赶过去足足要开三个小时。新人们提前一天先北上整理小木屋，并告诉他们双方的父母周六中午到小木屋来野餐。而我和大个子自然要在他们父母之前赶到，察看地形以及帮助稍加准备。


漂亮的新娘Larissa，我觉得她的眼睛和眉毛十分迷人。

为了不迟到，我们最后决定周五晚上就北上，也在小木屋里住一晚。到那时已是半夜12点了，小屋里亮着几盏昏黄的灯光，屋子里堆满了东西，有些杂乱。房间正中有一个很老式的烧柴的火炉，要打开门往里扔木柴，还要用那种扇风的皮囊(风囊)一挤一挤的往门里吹风。木屋大约是20年代建造的，看上去很旧，Calistoga地区靠温泉出名，山上经常有人钻井挖泉眼，时不时会引起小小的地震。而木屋有几扇窗就在我们去之前两个星期被地震震碎了，临时只能用旧毯子蒙着。我们四人晚上就围着火炉坐着聊天喝啤酒，Larissa还在屋里各处点了蜡烛，Grayson时不时打开火炉，扔进两根碎木，金红的火光映在脸上闪闪烁烁。衬得小屋虽显破旧但还颇为温馨。


The kiss

星期六一大早下山去镇上吃早饭，典型的美国小镇，没有什么亚洲人，一走进当地小小的breakfast restaurant，让我觉得有些格格不入。吃罢早饭新郎要去剪头，镇上的小理发店，店面很小，只有两把转椅，让人恍惚间回到60年代的感觉。

新郎理发，新娘为野餐去做最后的shopping，我和大个子帮新娘买了花，回去后趁他们更换衣服时，我连摘带剪的为新娘扎了束捧花，后来很多照片还多亏这束捧花提色了，自我表扬一下。


温情相视

婚礼选在小木屋旁的小溪边，因为是在树林里，有是大中午的，光透过树林印在人脸上斑斑灼灼的。虽然我临去之前问DD借了他的big ass flash，可惜光有器材没有手艺，用光还是我的一大弱点。

整个婚礼前后没有几分钟，大个子牧师第一次给人结婚，看着比要结婚的两人还要紧张，拿着小纸条一直在读，刚开始时还磕磕绊绊的，比他上台做presentation要差远了。后来他也直说得好好练习，否则怎么应付Alan的婚礼啊！小溪边只有一小快空地，我架着两台相机（本人看着还挺专业的，左边挂一台佳能带广角的，右边是我的尼康D40加长焦和DD的专业闪光灯，一身行头浑身上下口袋无数，不管技术如何，看着唬人还是没问题的，呵呵。）上窜下跳的还是没有好地方站，只能怪自己个子太矮。而这次婚礼也着实不寻常，新娘新郎连誓言都不要，大个子牧师念完台词，两人直接交换完戒指就完事了，只可惜我左兜右绕的也没照上一张带戒指的照片。


牧师Dan穿着他新买的牧师服，看着还挺象回事的。

事后新人们倒是很自觉的找地摆姿势让我猛补照了一番，有几张也让我稍稍找回些自信。不管怎样，第一次的wedding photographer的经验还是颇有意思的。


For better or for worse